I can’t believe I am going to say this, but “I miss the four seasons of living in NYC.”
I never had an issue with winter, honestly, but I would dream about going a year without encountering any snow or cold.
I live in Thailand now, and that wish finally came true! But I find myself yearning for the transitions and phases that come from living in a place with seasons like Fall, Winter, Spring, and Summer.
Fall is the time for new beginnings! It’s like an unofficial “new year.” I think this is tied to starting school in September from ages 5-25. It’s embedded in my psyche.
There are two seasons in Thailand: very rainy but still hot, then no rain and very hot! During both seasons, it’s always humid!
I miss Autumn and the crisp air of newness. I miss fall foliage, when the leaves gradually turn shades of crimson, gold, yellow, and orange, then fall to the ground. Then comes the weeks trekking through dead leaves outside and looking up at the naked branches that silhouette the sky. I guess I grew accustomed to all the emotions that Autumn stirs up in my soul. So, this morning I woke up and decided I was tapping into my autumn energy.
Which means that I am letting go of the old and embracing the new. Yesterday, I wrote about my fears and that they bombard me. Today, I am addressing that by letting go of them because they weigh me down. When I hold on, I try to control reality, and that’s proven to… not work.
I am hoping that as I continue to turn over a new leaf and release my fears, just maybe my dreams will come true one day.